My daughter is still saving my life, and being all brilliant and what not. She's learning the word cheese. She is going to look me in the face and say 'cheese before she says 'Mama'. Which at this point is probably more accurate anyways. She seems completely attached to her father these days. I can't blame her though, he is wonderful. Quite honestly I believe that she has already made up her mind to be a daddy's girl. Not that I'm complaining. I've been on Everett's side all along.
My husband is working very hard day and night. Mostly the cause of my increased insomnia by the way. It's bizarre how attached you can get to such a silly routine like having someone sleep next to you. You're not even awake. Why do you care if you're sleeping next to them or not. Falling asleep is almost impossible though. It's as if I know I'll miss him even subconsciously so what's the point?
In other news, The period for entering the contest ended about a week ago now. It was very strange to wake up and not have a very specific reason to get on the computer. It had become such a habit for those almost fifty days. And now we're a mere two days away from them picking the winner! Supposedly they will wait until the twenty-fifth of June to bombard the winner with a camera crew, and balloons or whatever non-sense. Honestly I think the house, car,and cash are enough.
I've stayed very hopeful, and sincerely positive through this whole thing despite recent events in my life, and to be honest, no matter what the outcome... it's been wonderful having something to look forward to. Something to dream about. Something exciting, and life changing in a supremely positive way to focus my thoughts on.
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And when everything is said and done, I will have my beautiful daughter Madison there to make everything better, to keep us moving forward, and to be so glad we're doing it.
Forever and Always,
Hopeful Mother. Of. Madison.
